Yday take results.... when i saw it, i gt a shock.... really is shocked... flunk 3 papers... Investment-49, IFO-46, IME-32... CB... oways 40plus.... i tot i will onli have 1 flunk paper or passed all coz i feel tat i really gt study tis sem... saw it & was so stunned.... damn demoralised... really dun feel like gg out & mit ppl & cope myself all day at hm... it really did cross my mind... dun go work, dun go out, cope myself all day in my rm... lay on my bed & cry... tat is wat i did yday.... cry for a couple of hrs yday... coz i feel tat i'm juz wasting $$$$, disappointing my parents & tat i was really 2pid... 2pid mi still wanna take degree like any other ppl... really is damn 2pid of mi... giving up did cross my mind.... really dun feel like studying anymore... mayb i shldn't even started in e 1st place... really is damn 2pid of mi...
Was depressed... din expect i will cry oso... i'm nt frm a rich family... cry bcoz i feel tat i'm really useless... kip failing every sem... throwing $$$$ away like tat.... really hate myself.... hate myself... my mum saw mi crying & asked mi wat happened... she say "y?? failed ur exams ar?" ha... coz i gt no bf... of coz is failed exams la... LOLx... she said "as long as u did ur best can liao lor... try again lor... kip trying & u will eventually passed"... it makes mi even more guilty man... & my tears can't stop flowing... really hate myself to e core man... hate myself... hate myself... i dunno wat i wan in life... i juz wan to lead a simple life... find a stable job, find e 1 i luv, get married & start a family... tat's all i wan.... juz so simple... i juz wan to b happy everyday by being simple.... i really dun expect much.... mayb i shld re-tink wat i wan again....
Mit joyce up yday.... after her hair cut... she cut off all her curls... ha... if mi, tink i gg to shave off all my hair liao lor.... b a nun is better.... no nid to fan so many things... ha... if 1 day i find e courage, i will go b a nun.... serious.... slack at coffeebean for a while... then decided to go sembawang park... went back to her hse & take chocolates, water, newspaper & car... off we went to sembawang park... yee msg mi at night asking how's my results & am i feeling sad... ha.. he expected i will fail huh... call him & asked him to cum down to sembawang park... pick up xiong & him at yishun... xiong take his chivas & open it in sembawang park... UP la... haha... drink quite a bit... ha... really is feeling down man... & we play 真心话大冒险... ha.. damn fucking suay.... almost kana mi... each person can asked 1 ques... so is 3 ques a round.. ha.. bt tink i was boring la... i nt tat adventurous... so they oso dunno wat to ask.... coz they like koe my ans.... wahaha... tell yee tat if i'm alone at hm all day yday, i will walk to his hse downstairs & cry... he dun believe... ha... bt i'm telling e truth la... he say he will hug mi... wahaha... shocking la... i tot he will like pat my head onli & ask mi nt to cry... ha... bt yday b4 he go down e car, i request for him to hug mi... ha... we hugged.... brotherly & sisterly luv... LOLx....
Went hm & zzzz... gg work later... damn sianz.... dun even wanna go work.... no choice... mayb tml i will nt go work... really no mood.... muz go back sch oso... damn f sianz... gg to appeal for my results....
Ok, gg get ready for work... muz bruce myself up.... cannot b sad anymore... i'm oready a grown-up... failure then try again... muz stand up again... juz give mi a few more days & i will b fine.... Thanx to e ppl who cared abt mi... u koe who u r... ~HuGgIeS & mUaCkZ~
